somewhere amid all the adulation and pressure, a spark went out.

oh man, this is bad, bad, bad.
mid-sem test is like 2 weeks away and im like totally unprepared AT ALL.
went back to read a previous post of mine about changing.
it's really depressing, i wrote it when i got my horrible gpa score last sem.
i seem to have lost my drive to study.
i practically doze off in every lectures and tutorials.
WHAT IS HAPPENING MAN?
and i've not done my tutorials for like 3 weeks, almost all are copied answers.
im so behind revision. SHIT SHIT SHIT.
can you believe if i tell you i didnt study macroecons like TOTALLY?
trust me, like starting from first day of sem till today, i have totally no idea what im learning at all.
SHIT MAN. WHAT HAPPENED TO MY LEAF?
i thought i wanted to turn over a new leaf and study?
alright, apparently i didnt and it's really BAD.
goddarnit.

I HATE THIS LAZY BERNICE!